Nightmare (13-12-2009)

I try to sleep but I toss and turn

I close my eyes although they burn,

The images in mind come back

And in my soul it's peace I lack.

Eventually in dark slumber I fall,

I look around and feel the call

The beasts and monsters closing in

I cannot run, sweat's on my skin

I feel their breath, they're coming near

I scream out loud, consumed with fear

And all at once I'm wide awake,

The nightmare's over, it was all fake.

Fourways (19-06-2009)

Split asunder and then again

Four parts of me that make me sane

They feed me energy, love and care

With each of them my life I share.

They know a part, but not the whole.

My layers are deep, tormented my soul

Yet I tell them all, I speak the truth

Not really Rough, more angel smooth.

Should they know more, should I just be?

Sharing more, would that make me free?

Partire (09-06-2009)

Partire, lasciare, andare

mentre io piango sola sull'altare

del mio neo-amore che non c'e piu'.

Ferire, frustare, lacerare

il mio cuore che non sa non amare

anche se fa male, nel buio laggiu'.

Ignorare, dimenticare, smettere

non posso, non c'e la faccio da sola

senza te, non mi sento forte.

Abbandonare, capire, accettare

Il mio principe azzurro che se ne va?

Giuro su Dio, preferisco la morte.

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Brief translation: Tormented thoughts of the author that knows that her love is going away and weeps on her own.

Love? (20-05-2009)

Where are thou that led me here

To the brink of this cliff's sheer?

Ready to push & make me dive

In the abyss of my life.

Hadn't I just figured out

That on my own I'm a good scout?

So why suddenly you appear

Making my thoughts go back to fear?

Fear of caring and being hurt

Fear of living in love's desert.

Where mirages beckon you on

Just to lead you to oblivion.

Where are you? Why aren't you here?

You got so close, then you disappear.

Leaving me exposed to the sun above

Thinking thoughts of... is this love? 

Tomorrow (13-05-2009)

There is no fear greater than not knowing how to keep living.
There is no hurt more painful, than not having anyone caring.
... and yet there's always tomorrow.

You cannot see your path from now on, it's all pitch black.
You're not going to find the way, you'll have to turn back.
... and yet there's always tomorrow.

I hear cries, anguish and pain... and I don't understand
The family in despair, they are mourning his end
For him there is never again tomorrow.

Going away (05-05-2009)

I went away
At the dawn of day,
leaving him warm by my side.

His blue eyes were closed,
his face all reposed,
and sadly and lonely I cried.

No sounds to be done,
No rushing around,
Otherwise he'd surely awake.

And I would have to smile
To kiss him goodbye
Willing my heart not to break.

Don't know if I'll be back
Don't want to think black
But I know that it's all at an end.

Prossimo Numero (23-01-2008)

Ma e' vero o solo un illusione?
Un cuore d'oro oppure un cafone?
Ho paura di stargli accanto,
Ed allo stesso tempo lo cerco tanto.

Mi son fusa il cervello a pensare
Vorrei piu' di tutto lasciarmi andare
E perdermi tra le sue braccia,
Baciarlo, accarezzargli la faccia.

Mi sa che questo numero mi fara' impazzire!
Mi gira la testa, ma mi sento gioire.
Basta. Ho deciso. Mi fidero' del destino.
Stanotte, amore mio, mi starai vicino vicino!

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Brief translation: The author speaks about a new man that she cannot yet figure out if he's real or just an illusion of her heart. She wants to stay close to him but at the same time is afraid of doing so. Finally however she decides to trust in destiny and share the night together.

Collision (28-01-2009)

I had to go back in the midst of time
To a place where I was kept in line
To smile and chatter as if all was ok
Whilst biting my tongue, keeping my say.

Yet as I was walking along in the street
The rain coming down, heavily like sleet
My two worlds collided and I went in shock
The past and the present both on the same rock.

My brain just stopped functioning, no coherent thought
This tableau was surreal, against logic I fought
Seems I cannot take this, I cannot explain
So off I just bolted, away in the rain.